I’m not sure if it’s a lack of practice, lack of exercise or it’s the MS brain screwing up but I’ve noticed something particularly interesting. My coordination and sense of self is deteriorating. What do I mean by sense of self? It’s the idea of where you are in proportion to things, like walls, chairs, stuff like that. I find myself constantly bumping in to walls or pushing things over on accident. This mixed with a lack of coordination can cause a series of embarrassing moments.
I never realized how bad my coordination was until I took up water aerobics. Simple moves that even the most disabled of people would be able to do, I could not. My brain just could not wrap itself around how they were doing it. And I mean literally, four step movements involving arms and legs. Knee up, arms out, other leg out, arms in? See, I still can’t even do it when I think about it and picture it in my head. I just can’t fathom how to replicate these simple movements. I wish I had done things like these before my first episode of MS so I would have something to compare it to. Have I always been this lacking in the area of coordination? I didn’t think so, but possibly?
Perhaps I was just slightly under typical coordination. I always remember being slightly clumsy but my attempts yesterday were borderline ridiculous! It was getting me to the point of frustration and I debated giving up and calling it a day. But I stuck it out and I’m glad I did. While the exercises weren’t enough to cause me to break a sweat, it’s still exercise and it will eventually help my coordination and perhaps also assist me with my balance issues. Besides, what could be more therapeutic than splashing around in warm waters with a pool noodle?
Now, the issues with my sense of self, that will probably never go away and will more than likely get worse as I lose weight. Mostly because I’m used to being larger so I’ve adjusted to accommodating that size. Ah well, you can’t win them all!
What about you? What do you do to help yourself be more self-aware? How about for coordination? Do you exercise? Practice yoga?