Sometimes.. your body gives you clues

And it's up to you to decipher them. Sorry I haven't updated in several weeks, as it turns out I relapsed. The doctor said the lesion in my brain had been active for at least six weeks and given my last post, that makes sense!

It all started when I began getting these strange headaches. They started out to be bearable, I would pop some aspirin and then lay down and in a few hours they'd be gone. They started with this slight burning right behind my right eye. I should have known, with the burning, that it was something more. For me, burning always means MS. Then they began to get worse. The burning would spread into my sinuses and the back of my throat. They would bring me to my knees, make me physical sick, I'd sneeze uncontrollably, my right eye would water and I couldn't deal with the symptoms, it was too much.

I took a trip to urgent care, since I don't have a primary in the area yet, and the doctor said it sounds like cluster headaches but since you have MS, we want you to get checked out by a neurologist as soon as possible. That doctor saved my life. I wish I could remember her name because I would send her flowers, a card or a fruit basket, or heck, all three! She made all the calls and she got me in to see a doctor at the Providence Multiple Sclerosis Center. Amazing!

The meeting with the PA was super informative and based on the pain, they wanted to get me in to an MRI right away. I went it for the MRI and as it turns out, I have a super large lesion on my brain that's been active for about six weeks. They sent me to the infusion center the next day and I started solumedrol.

This time around they did not put me on prednisone to taper and it was hell. The first week after I was so tired, sick and miserable all I did was sleep. Finally a few days later the giant boulder had been lifted off of my head and I was able to function. I could stand up without falling over, I could think, I could drive, life was getting back to normal.

I was also told I'm eligible for a clinical trial that will pay for everything, which would be great since my insurance company considers this a pre-existing condition!

I've also started to get a handle on my PCOs. This time I did a little research before going to a doctor and handpicked the one I wanted to see. Dr. Amato was actually recommended on a PCOs forum I troll around a bit. She turned out to be super nice, and put me at ease. She passed my test but only managed to tell me the stuff I already knew. Her solution was also just to give me a “band-aid” treatment of progesterone and birth control, all before getting the results back from my tests. I didn't have the courage this time to ask to have my cortisol levels checked but I have an appointment in a month so I'll bring it up then. Yup, this one didn't scare me away so I'll actually be going back!

And that's all the updating I have to offer. Although, I should send out a public thank you to Steven who drove three hours each way, twice, to take care of me when I was really bad. He made sure I didn't fall and did a wonderful job making sure I was okay. What an amazing man. After five years in a terrible, abusive, demeaning relationship- Steven is breathe of fresh air!

Shedding a little light on the subject

I wanted to take this opportunity to share with you some images. I'm not an expert on reading MRIs and I'm really not sure what I'm looking for. When I received my first series of MRIs (the old fashioned prints) I really wanted to be able to see what the doctor was talking about. I asked him to point the lesion out to me. Now, this is an MRI image off the disk they gave me the last time (9/10). This is the only lesion I can positively identify because it was my very first.
It is located on my c-spine and it's the bastard that started all my troubles!


I wanted to show you images of the lesions on my brain but I'm really not sure what they look like. I think for the sake of research and to be completely knowledgeable I will have to harass Taft into giving me a play by play. These lesions are the most important for diagnosis. In order to have a confirmed case of multiple sclerosis there has to be lesions present on your brain (the first flare-up only presented an image on my c-spine, but they treated me for MS because if it looks like MS, feels like MS, more than likely you've got MS).

The reason I'm having a hard time recovering from this last flare-up was because of the size of the lesion. I know nothing about how lesions on the thoracic spine presents itself. I can only assume based on my c-spine lesion that it's that giant white mass staring back at me. I can also assume that that's why I'm having such a terrible time with the dreaded MS hug!


When I find out more from Taft at my next appointment (in October) I'll be sure to ask him to explain to me exactly what it is that I'm looking at. I think in order to truly understand this disease you have to be a sponge! You have to absorb as much knowledge as you can in order to truly be able to take a stand against this disease!