Monday, January 31, 2011

Living each day.

I didn't mean to miss a couple days of posting but I found myself on a spontaneous adventure that was much needed. After not being able to drive and not having much to do, I was getting a bit of cabin fever. We managed to solve that problem.
The weekend was rather exciting and served as a reminder that even though I'm sick, I can be spontaneous and adventurous. I don't have to give that up, nor do I plan to.
Saturday started off rather weakly as I was troubled with the most terrible of cramps. At one point I thought my uterus was going to evacuate, it was so bothersome. The day turned around when we went and decided to have lunch at a local restaurant called Ohana in the Roseway Theater neighborhood. It was Hawaiian food and oh so delicious. The sun was shining and I've noticed on days it's particularly bright I see a bit better. We then proceeded to the Roseway Theater and watched The King's Speech which was pretty spectacular. It's interesting watching movies with one eye pinched shut so I don't have double vision. It's annoying but it doesn't detract from the movie.
Later that evening Chrissey and I went to her friend Kristen and Shari's for a bit of board games and rowdy conversation. It was just what I needed, a nice welcoming embrace to the Portland community. In fact, it was so much fun we didn't want it to end. We gassed up the car and decided to drive the two hours to Lincoln City, eat at Maxwell's and stay overnight. The coast is one of my favorite places, the smell in the air and the wind, to me there is nothing better. We drove back yesterday morning, stopping and snapping pictures and having a good time. I have to say, I love late night car rides with Chrissey. Sometimes the conversation gets so deep and fascinating that we have to pause for several moments of silence while we process it all. I learn so much about her and even more about myself on these little trips. I think that's what I missed most on my travels across the country. I missed connecting and sharing that profound and life altering experience. It was nice to be able to have a bit of self reflection but I think it would have been an amazing experience if I was able to share it with her.
The vision is slowly improving although today there doesn't seem to be much of a difference. The prednisone is putting pressure on my eye and it aches, but it's tolerable at this point. It's not like weeks ago when I nearly wanted to pluck my eye out of my head because the pain was so severe. I'm not satisfied with the rate of progress but alas, any sort of progress is better than the alternative.
I have a job interview on Wednesday as well as an oil change so it's my hope that by then I'll be able to drive. I really should start resting my eyes more frequently as I suppose that would help. I did figure out the best way to describe what it is I see. At this point it's almost like someone turned the dimmer switch in my eye all the way down so it's difficult to really focus or make out any specific details. I hope for my sake, and the sake of my wallet that I will be able to see soon. I need to find a job.


  1. Sounds like a most excellent weekend. Glad you enjoyed the ocean. I'm not a huge fan, as the ocean tried to kill me every year when I was a kid (Jones Beach, Long Island...a tough place when you grew up at a lake!), also, there's the no tree stuff by the ocean LOL You sound happy, and that is wonderful. I hope the interview goes well.

    I heard a wonderful segment on NPR on my way to work this morning on MS. There is an Italian doc who posits MS is involved with veins being collapsed/not functioning well. From what I heard, it sounds like so far this doesn't appear to be cause, but may be effect. There IS an MS association, because they mentioned it! Get in touch with them if you haven't already. Going to your local NPR site on the web may even find the item.

  2. Hi Desiree,
    I came to your blog via Lisa's MS Bloggers online. It's good to get out once in while even though you may not feel like it. Sounds like you had a good weekend. Hope the job interview went well.

  3. Love the pix. Getting out is good. Hang in there, kiddo!